wounded

The Lord is always communicating with us...

bad christian

I am full aware of how my humanity does not reflect my belief system sometimes.  I do not write this for any kind of self-deprecation nor am I fishing for compliments, but more of an apology and acknowlagement.  And maybe some encouragement for others.

When Heath first felt the call to ordination, my first thoughts (of course) were, "how am I supppsed to be a pastor's wife?"  Through that process he was called to evangelism and to this ministry he has now through Heath and the Checker Shoe Band Show.  Also through this process, the Lord's helped me understand what Grace really is and how this dichotomy of being a Christian and a human can exist in one space.  And what being a child of God really means.

So this is what I have come to understand:

1- I am so thankful that the shed blood of Jesus Christ atones for my sins.

2-If I weren't a bad Christian, I would be a terrible human being.  Seriously, my Christianity keeps me from doing what my flesh wants to do.

3- my job is to be a sign post pointing others to Him.  And I'd hate to know that something I said or did keeps someone from running to Him.  And if that's the case, I hope that His Love is so overwhelming that what I've said or done doesn't matter.

So there's a balance to all this.  I'm not doing a great job.  I hope to get better.

But this is my conclusion:  "I may not be a great Christian.... but I serve a great God."