It says Fruit of the Spirit not the Fruit of Buffy

yesterday, our pastor asked on facebook what were we using to motivate ourselves to keep our goals and I wrote this:  " I took Hank to the doctor this morning for a well-child visit and pulling up into the parking lot the d.j. on the radio read Galatians 5:22-23- the Fruit of the Spirit verse which is a cornerstone verse for our family and for our ministry- but it struck me as he read through the list: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and SELF-CONTROL- the list seems to get increasingly difficult for me to maintain... but since this is the Fruit of the SPIRIT and not the Fruit of Buffy, then I can rely on the Holy Spirit to bear this fruit in me."

And just as I posted that, the bottom fell out.  The boys got disobedient and I got emotional.  Oh my.  Do I need some work.   I made my apologies to everyone. I mean I doubt they even remember it now but I felt like poop.  I know everyone loses it from time to time and we can't be perfect parent all the time. But I don't like how the enemy is taking my mistake and rubbing my nose in it.  I am not proud that I responded emotionally to their disobedience.  But I did.  Lord, help.  Lord, forgive me.

The fruit of the Spirit list is SO HARD FOR ME. From the beginning to the end.  And each fruit gets harder and harder for me as I progress through the list.

But see- there I go- "so hard for me." (Uhm, McFly, this is not about you."  Fruit of the Spirit ... Not fruit of Buffy.

Lord help.