orlando: two conversations in one post

I am really nervous to put this out into the universe. I am gonna sound really ignorant and probably hypcritical- but that's a risk I am going to take... 

for my sons' sake...

because there are some dialogues I need to be ready for as I send them out into the world.

When I was a kid, I felt sheilded from the news... I knew the Cold War was happening but I never knew all the other stuff... because we did not have the internet. Now I have to be really careful what my boys see and hear... we get all the news and all the details all the time.

When the Brock Turner news was hittin', it was easy to say what was wrong in that situation.

And when the news hit about the massacre in Orlando, it was easy for me to say what was wrong in this situation. (in case you are confused-all of it-all of it is wrong) 

Even when you found out it was a hate crime against people who are gay, Buffy? aren't you a Christian, Buffy? 

Yes- it's all wrong. Murder is wrong. 

So at this point of the dialogue in my head, it splits into a conversation with the world and a conversation with my community of Christian believers (I mean like my own personal church and my personal friends)-and it goes like this:

Church family, did you know there's this whole other disinfranchized group- there's a lot of different names for this group and I don't even know the one they prefer: Gay? Lesbian? LGBT? I feel so stupid. I had no idea. They are scared. And they have families who are hurting. And this group has some pretty big Church wounds and Lord, I hope I never inflicted. [I think we as Christians have two immediate action steps: apply the "don't"s of the Bible to ourselves and apply the "do"s of the Bible to the world-We've got enough issues to fill one hundred years of Sundays instead of wasting time pointing fingers (p.s. it's not working)].

To the world, I had no idea that those of you who are a part of the LGBT community hurt so bad. And I understand if you don't accept my apology- and I understand if you don't care that I have sat on my couch and cried over the news out of Orlando. It's horrific. I honestly don't have adjectives to describe this. 

To my sons: I will never condone your hurting another person- physically or other wise. Ever. Even when you disagree with him/her.

To those of you reading: either you think I am spot on or a complete fool. I get that. But I've got to work this out for myself. Like my religion 201 professor stated at the start of our course: "this is not the time or place to talk about who's right and who is wrong..." at this moment I don't want to talk about whose theology is right and who's wrong... people are hurting- we as Christians should respond in love.