becoming unafraid

fear

grips my chest

steals my breath

blurs my vision

i’m exhausted

being afraid

it’s exhausting

running down a thousand rabbit holes 

looking for you

so i close my eyes

and breathe in

breathe out

i tell the speaker of these thoughts to hush

i’m tired

of being sick and tired

i come to the place where becoming unafraid slips into the thrill of being in His embrace

where the security i searched for

has been in His hands

this whole time

i breathe in this freedom

unafraid of drowning in the river of His grace

i’m at the place where becoming unafraid dissolves into a place where my mind is still and calm

i once was hanging by the thread of His garment

now i am resting in His embrace

becoming unafraid